Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.

This is the continuation of my previous post: Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK… But truth be told it wasn't all Luther's fault. I was too busy being happy as well. I didn't need to write to process issues or struggles, or to stay happy/calm/sane. But I missed … Continue reading Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.


Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK…

It's interesting, isn't it, that since I found "happiness" I don't write anymore? Or at least I haven't written in a while. Not for lack of starting blog posts - quite a few actually, over the last 3-4 months - most of them in my head but some of them also on paper. Or on … Continue reading Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK…

I’d rather be happy than high….

I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I used to be afraid of addressing my depression, because I liked my highs more than I detested my lows. Or at least I thought I did. I thought (or told myself as a means to avoid dealing?) that if I'd address and get rid … Continue reading I’d rather be happy than high….

It’s time to buy the ticket and take the ride!

For those of you who've been following me for a while, you know that I usually refer to myself as a recovering Lutheran, or a "good girl" in recovery. Simply because my entire life (all of my first 41 1/2 years at least) I have always made decisions based on what I "should" be doing. … Continue reading It’s time to buy the ticket and take the ride!

自我反映(十四)——觉知 / Self-Reflection (14) – Awareness

This is a great post – I love the honesty – and I can very much relate. It seems the work on self-improvement in regards to myself and my own person has progressed a lot more and faster, than my “mindfulness” in regards to others. This is something I am now starting to shift more of my self-improvement efforts and focus toward – and this blog post was a great inspiration. It is very nice to see that you are not alone with specific struggles. It makes it that little bit easier to admit and acknowledge your weakness, which is fundamental for being able to address them….


English version below……


















Whenever I see his messages came into the group chat, I can’t help it but to feel disgusted, and had an urge to make a sarcastic remark about his actions or words.

I have actually done it many times, allowing my subconscious mind to get the better of me. I would joked about his words to another colleague and we will have a laugh at it.

Today, I continue to feel disgusted when his messages came into the group chat, but I am more aware of my own thoughts. Instead of triggering a sarcastic remark to my colleague, I will pause for a moment and reflect upon myself. I will look into my own inner soul and think in great depth, trying hard to find what is it that disgusted…

View original post 278 more words

Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

  Another blogger that I follow, Mike, posted what he calls a Ramble yesterday about being lonely - it is a great read like and very nicely written so I can highly recommend it btw - and today, as I listened to another one of venerable Ajahn Brahm's dhamma talks, I started thinking about my own loneliness... … Continue reading Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!