You know I have written a lot about detaching and choosing to be here [stateside] and how happy I am lately, having made new friends, working less - doing more/better stuff and all that... Well, yes I was. But I am not anymore. So why the sudden 180? Am I schizophrenic? What is wrong with … Continue reading The day my sister called me and I did not pick up
As the world continues to literally go down in flames, I'm sitting here thinking about how nice it would be to check out, pay the bills, get rid of all the "baggage" and just go on my merry way.... Go back to Thailand, or maybe go somewhere new to me, like Central America. Down-size, cut … Continue reading I want “simple”. Simple makes happy. I want someone who sees that too. Are you out there?
So, I came back to Seattle today, after being in Sweden for a little over three weeks. And it's not the first time, far from it, that I've been away for 2 or 3 weeks. And normally I get all strung up and stressed out when I'm about to go back. I start fretting and … Continue reading The strangest experience ever.
I have written about my mental health journey over the last year, mostly focused on how I have addressed it. Never really touching that much about what caused it. This is intentional as I have started learning to embrace some fundamental teachings of the Buddha: "Letting Go" and "Living in the Present". The one post … Continue reading Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.
Another blogger that I follow, Mike, posted what he calls a Ramble yesterday about being lonely - it is a great read like and very nicely written so I can highly recommend it btw - and today, as I listened to another one of venerable Ajahn Brahm's dhamma talks, I started thinking about my own loneliness... … Continue reading Being Alone vs. Being Lonely
Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!
For many years, before I decided to deal with all of my "issues", I have struggled with what causes me to feel like this. To be like this. Why can't I be happy [like everyone else]? Why do I have to keep battling anxiety attacks and depression? Why can't I just be "normal"? I have … Continue reading A letter to my Dad