Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

I have written about my mental health journey over the last year, mostly focused on how I have addressed it. Never really touching that much about what caused it. This is intentional as I have started learning to embrace some fundamental teachings of the Buddha: "Letting Go" and "Living in the Present". The one post … Continue reading Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

  Another blogger that I follow, Mike, posted what he calls a Ramble yesterday about being lonely - it is a great read like and very nicely written so I can highly recommend it btw - and today, as I listened to another one of venerable Ajahn Brahm's dhamma talks, I started thinking about my own loneliness... … Continue reading Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

A letter to my Dad

For many years, before I decided to deal with all of my "issues", I have struggled with what causes me to feel like this. To be like this. Why can't I be happy [like everyone else]? Why do I have to keep battling anxiety attacks and depression? Why can't I just be "normal"? I have … Continue reading A letter to my Dad

To the friend who cut me off when I hit rock bottom: Thank You!

About four months ago now, I started dealing with some problems and issues that I have faced for the most part of my life but never had the courage to deal with. And it worked! I felt better, stronger and happier every day. I was able to shed a lot of bad habits and bad … Continue reading To the friend who cut me off when I hit rock bottom: Thank You!

Trolls, toxicity and choosing happiness

It's been 10 days or so since my last post, which lately is a long time for me not to be writing. I have been very low and in a darker place than I have for a long time. The last four weeks or so just going steadily down, back to where I was before … Continue reading Trolls, toxicity and choosing happiness