The day my sister called me and I did not pick up

You know I have written a lot about detaching and choosing to be here [stateside] and how happy I am lately, having made new friends, working less - doing more/better stuff and all that... Well, yes I was. But I am not anymore. So why the sudden 180? Am I schizophrenic? What is wrong with … Continue reading The day my sister called me and I did not pick up

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Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

I have written about my mental health journey over the last year, mostly focused on how I have addressed it. Never really touching that much about what caused it. This is intentional as I have started learning to embrace some fundamental teachings of the Buddha: "Letting Go" and "Living in the Present". The one post … Continue reading Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.

This is the continuation of my previous post: Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK… But truth be told it wasn't all Luther's fault. I was too busy being happy as well. I didn't need to write to process issues or struggles, or to stay happy/calm/sane. But I missed … Continue reading Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.

Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK…

It's interesting, isn't it, that since I found "happiness" I don't write anymore? Or at least I haven't written in a while. Not for lack of starting blog posts - quite a few actually, over the last 3-4 months - most of them in my head but some of them also on paper. Or on … Continue reading Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK…

I’d rather be happy than high….

I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I used to be afraid of addressing my depression, because I liked my highs more than I detested my lows. Or at least I thought I did. I thought (or told myself as a means to avoid dealing?) that if I'd address and get rid … Continue reading I’d rather be happy than high….

Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

  Another blogger that I follow, Mike, posted what he calls a Ramble yesterday about being lonely - it is a great read like and very nicely written so I can highly recommend it btw - and today, as I listened to another one of venerable Ajahn Brahm's dhamma talks, I started thinking about my own loneliness... … Continue reading Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!