Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

I have written about my mental health journey over the last year, mostly focused on how I have addressed it. Never really touching that much about what caused it. This is intentional as I have started learning to embrace some fundamental teachings of the Buddha: "Letting Go" and "Living in the Present". The one post … Continue reading Memoirs of an ex-pat. And her complete social failure that led to collapse.

Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.

This is the continuation of my previous post: Learn to be happy – and to share your happiness! It is OK… But truth be told it wasn't all Luther's fault. I was too busy being happy as well. I didn't need to write to process issues or struggles, or to stay happy/calm/sane. But I missed … Continue reading Every f**k-up has a silver lining. It just takes practice to see them.

6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

I am finally going home!

Written on December 3rd, 2016. I am going home. For the first time in 10 years, I'm going back to Thailand. I'm nervous and excited all at once. It's been a long time and it is the first time that I feel ready to go back to the country that stole my heart more than … Continue reading I am finally going home!

Time to be Thankful…

Thanksgiving is not something we celebrate where I come from, obviously, but it is my favourite US holiday by far. It is a time to come together with friends and family, over a nice meal, and just enjoy the time together. Most years I haven't been celebrating but this year I am - in exactly … Continue reading Time to be Thankful…

Trolls, toxicity and choosing happiness

It's been 10 days or so since my last post, which lately is a long time for me not to be writing. I have been very low and in a darker place than I have for a long time. The last four weeks or so just going steadily down, back to where I was before … Continue reading Trolls, toxicity and choosing happiness

One step at the time. And that’s a good start.

Over the last couple of weeks, three to be exact, my life has literally done a 180 turn and gotten me back almost to where I started over three months ago. I am over worked, under slept and unhappy. Stress is building exponentially week over week and in the beginning I was at least able … Continue reading One step at the time. And that’s a good start.