I’d rather be happy than high….

I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I used to be afraid of addressing my depression, because I liked my highs more than I detested my lows. Or at least I thought I did. I thought (or told myself as a means to avoid dealing?) that if I'd address and get rid … Continue reading I’d rather be happy than high….

I wrote your name on a stone and threw it in the river…

And it hurt. A lot. But I had no choice. I had to do it because I cannot keep entertaining you on your premise. "Letting go" is a good thing to do and theoretically a very simple way to a happier life. It is necessary for us to be able to move on, flourish and thrive. … Continue reading I wrote your name on a stone and threw it in the river…

A letter to my Dad

For many years, before I decided to deal with all of my "issues", I have struggled with what causes me to feel like this. To be like this. Why can't I be happy [like everyone else]? Why do I have to keep battling anxiety attacks and depression? Why can't I just be "normal"? I have … Continue reading A letter to my Dad

How to deal with the unexpected and disappointment.

Some people say "when life brings you lemons, you make lemonade" and I have heard a couple say "when life brings you lemons you bring out the tequila". But I won't do that. I am past dealing with shitty things in life by trying to numb the pain with alcohol, or any other substance for … Continue reading How to deal with the unexpected and disappointment.

Living in the now. The art and benefits of letting go.

I have met so many fascinating people lately because I stopped isolating myself at home. Stopped wrapping myself in that wet, smelly depression blanket. Stopped pulling the blinds down, spending days wallowing in self-pity. I stopped self-medicating 4 months ago. Stopped numbing my pain (and senses!) and as a result I stopped feeling worthless. Not … Continue reading Living in the now. The art and benefits of letting go.

Letting go of “leafy people”…

Today I woke up, still tired after a fairly sound 8-hr sleep and I just was Not. In. The. Mood. To work... I guess last week's insane work schedule, clocking in some 64 hrs over 4 days and averaging about 4 hrs sleep per night, somehow caught up with me... Funny that! 🙂 But because of … Continue reading Letting go of “leafy people”…

Finding that foothold and confidence. Again…

I was a little worried earlier this week, about this upcoming trip that I am on, and the recent state of mind I have been in. For the last year-year and a half, as I have been depressed most of the time, I have not at all enjoyed (business) traveling - or rather, once I get … Continue reading Finding that foothold and confidence. Again…