As the world continues to literally go down in flames, I'm sitting here thinking about how nice it would be to check out, pay the bills, get rid of all the "baggage" and just go on my merry way.... Go back to Thailand, or maybe go somewhere new to me, like Central America. Down-size, cut … Continue reading I want “simple”. Simple makes happy. I want someone who sees that too. Are you out there?
As I called out in my last blog post The strangest experience ever, about how coming back to Seattle this time, didn't send me off into a total spin. On the contrary, I felt like a visitor in my own home and in my own neighbourhood, where I literally know everyone... A bit like "an out of … Continue reading I am finally detached – and that’s why I have found true happiness!
I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I used to be afraid of addressing my depression, because I liked my highs more than I detested my lows. Or at least I thought I did. I thought (or told myself as a means to avoid dealing?) that if I'd address and get rid … Continue reading I’d rather be happy than high….
And it hurt. A lot. But I had no choice. I had to do it because I cannot keep entertaining you on your premise. "Letting go" is a good thing to do and theoretically a very simple way to a happier life. It is necessary for us to be able to move on, flourish and thrive. … Continue reading I wrote your name on a stone and threw it in the river…
For many years, before I decided to deal with all of my "issues", I have struggled with what causes me to feel like this. To be like this. Why can't I be happy [like everyone else]? Why do I have to keep battling anxiety attacks and depression? Why can't I just be "normal"? I have … Continue reading A letter to my Dad
Some people say "when life brings you lemons, you make lemonade" and I have heard a couple say "when life brings you lemons you bring out the tequila". But I won't do that. I am past dealing with shitty things in life by trying to numb the pain with alcohol, or any other substance for … Continue reading How to deal with the unexpected and disappointment.
I have met so many fascinating people lately because I stopped isolating myself at home. Stopped wrapping myself in that wet, smelly depression blanket. Stopped pulling the blinds down, spending days wallowing in self-pity. I stopped self-medicating 4 months ago. Stopped numbing my pain (and senses!) and as a result I stopped feeling worthless. Not … Continue reading Living in the now. The art and benefits of letting go.