I’d rather be happy than high….

I haven't been this happy in a long, long time. I used to be afraid of addressing my depression, because I liked my highs more than I detested my lows. Or at least I thought I did. I thought (or told myself as a means to avoid dealing?) that if I'd address and get rid … Continue reading I’d rather be happy than high….

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Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

  Another blogger that I follow, Mike, posted what he calls a Ramble yesterday about being lonely - it is a great read like and very nicely written so I can highly recommend it btw - and today, as I listened to another one of venerable Ajahn Brahm's dhamma talks, I started thinking about my own loneliness... … Continue reading Being Alone vs. Being Lonely

6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

Lately I have really started to feel safe and sound in my (mental health) recovery journey. I am beginning to trust that I am in fact in a solid place. An emotional space where relapses are fewer and fewer and occur farther and farther apart. My last anxiety attack was early September and that's over … Continue reading 6 months into recovery – and my life has changed forever!

How the four noble truths have helped me change my life…

It's been a really good week. I mean really good. I feel more grounded and balanced than I have in a long time. Maybe more so than ever. I get so much done but I still have plenty of time to think and reflect, meditate and do things for me. Things that make me happy. … Continue reading How the four noble truths have helped me change my life…

Living in the now. The art and benefits of letting go.

I have met so many fascinating people lately because I stopped isolating myself at home. Stopped wrapping myself in that wet, smelly depression blanket. Stopped pulling the blinds down, spending days wallowing in self-pity. I stopped self-medicating 4 months ago. Stopped numbing my pain (and senses!) and as a result I stopped feeling worthless. Not … Continue reading Living in the now. The art and benefits of letting go.

Letting go of “leafy people”…

Today I woke up, still tired after a fairly sound 8-hr sleep and I just was Not. In. The. Mood. To work... I guess last week's insane work schedule, clocking in some 64 hrs over 4 days and averaging about 4 hrs sleep per night, somehow caught up with me... Funny that! 🙂 But because of … Continue reading Letting go of “leafy people”…

Finding that foothold and confidence. Again…

I was a little worried earlier this week, about this upcoming trip that I am on, and the recent state of mind I have been in. For the last year-year and a half, as I have been depressed most of the time, I have not at all enjoyed (business) traveling - or rather, once I get … Continue reading Finding that foothold and confidence. Again…